It’s funny. A month after doing my birthday inventory and good ole pregnancy hormones kicking in, I started going over some of the things I wanted to do and I realized some things I needed to change.
I originally started my blog because I wanted a platform to finally share things I have written and my thoughts. I wanted to share some workouts and fitness related ideas to help women, especially those fellow mommies, who may need some ideas and not know where to start. I wanted to occasionally share some of the adventure in my life and anything else that struck my fancy, but again, my writing was most important.
I knew I wanted a platform to give sneak peaks at these things to show people what was on my blog and I thought instagram would be a great way to spread my words. What I wasn’t expecting was what came with it. Instagram was suddenly this whole new world of fitness, beauty, style, adventure, mom life and anything else you had a hashtag for. It was amazing watching the power of instagram in action, but I started losing focus on why I started my instagram. I was posting fitness posts, which has been great with so many people having reached out to me over them, but I got lost with my other biggest intention of sharing my writings. I started posting about style and things I had never intended to but enjoyed the feedback on. What’s worse is I wasn’t sharing near as many writings or thoughts as I had wanted and was suddenly immersed in what drove my instagram following. Don’t get me wrong, I am so grateful and thankful that people are interested in what I have to say but I was becoming obsessed with it.
I knew it was really time to re-evaluate my instagram usage and obsession when I started questioning so much solely based on my new instagram infatuation. As extreme as whether I should get some work done (totally not against this if it’s what you want) but I was questioning things that had never bothered me about myself, like maybe I should have fuller lips. I never thought anything was wrong with them, I was just… let’s say, inspired. I was constantly seeing these beautiful women with beautiful lips that I thought maybe I needed a revamp. Even the less extreme things like seeing super cute outfits thinking I could totally post cute outfits too, even though I never wanted to be a fashion blog. I was considering whether I should just change my instagram to a fitness account because I work out so much and have a lot of knowledge about working out (and I did want to be helpful every so often for other mommies) it would be easy to only post about it.
Thankfully I have my sister as my sound board, because she was quick to pull me back down to earth form my instagram bubble (especially when I told her about considering getting my lips done). My website and instagram are suppose to be about being unedited. Real life in all its imperfect beauty; writings from my heart, my life in all its chaos, and occasionally trying to inspire other women interested in fitness through workouts and tips.
So where does this leave my blog? As you have seen I have started sharing more of my writings and will blog about things that I feel passionate about and not what I think will garner the most “likes”. I won’t be posting as much on instagram or social media daily because I don’t like the way it can be so addictive. I feel like it is so easy to get caught up in all these “perfect” looking lives and people and new avenues to garner followers; I was losing sight of what mattered to me and what I wanted. My biggest dream has always been to be a writer and though I do enjoy sharing my other passions, that is where I realize I want my focus to be on. As I have said before, my blog will continue to evolve as I do and as life’s ride continues to unfold. I hope you enjoy it!